Confession 1

Three years ago I was one of those people who thought people cut for attention, there were these girls in my class who cut, and showed it off like something to be proud of, one girl who caved ‘mum’ in to her arm, I didn’t understand. Maybe those girls were doing it for attention or  maybe their pain was real. But now I’m that girl who cut herself. But not for attention but the truth is I hate the attention. I hid it for a year, and whenever my mum try’s to talk to me about it I shut down, and when she tried to get me help I didn’t go to the appointment because I don’t even know what I want, or why I do it. So now I hide myself away from everyone and get all kinds of anxiety whenever I think about my future. But most of all I try not to cut because it’s doesn’t make be feel better at all. 

Busy Busy Busy

I know i havent written in a while but iv been busy, i know its a bad excuse but its the truth between school and work, ( Oh i got a job by the way) iv just not really had the time to blog besides iv been really tired.
Iv really been considering what i want to do with my life and to be honest iv not really made any decsions about it, however i have come to the conclustion that whatever i do i want to be happy, i dont want to work just for money and im sure that at some point in my life, like now ill have to work just for the money but i dont want to career in something i dont like or that i dont have a really interest in. And right now i have not idea what im interested in. ERRRR
Iv also been looking at different uni’s i may apply to however i have decided that i am going to take a gap year and travel around maybe europe or like south africa i not sure yet but i know its something i want to do.
Im trying to lose weight for summer and for life really just want to be fit and healthy and stuff, its going okay i guess.
Legally blonde is my favourite musical right now, its so funny and cute and sassy im loving it and i cant stop listening to the soundtrack.

Chao For Now x

Also I Cant Wait For Entourage To Start.

Red Wine

So i havent been up to much lately really just the same old stuff, eating, sleeping, going to school, fighting with my parents, watching too much tv and stuff.

I brought The Last Song book yesterday and im going to read it before i watch the film i hope there both good.

Iv decided i love matt smith.

Bye x

First Lesson

Today My Dad Took Me On My First Driving Lesson Which Was So Fun Im Kinda Of Getting The Hang Of It, Being Behind The Wheel Of A Car Gives You Such A Buzz.

I Sent An Applcation To Apply To Voleenteer For A News Paper Or Something To Be A Photographer Which Is Pretty Cool, Although I Really Need To Find A Job So I Can Buy A New Camera That I Want. I Took Some Pretty Good Photos The Other Say In The Park
Check Them Out.

Tomorrow Is The First Day Back At School. Dont Want To Go. I Would Rather Sleep But What You Gunna Do.
Chao

Bird/Duck Thing

Been A Little MIA This Week I Have Good Reason.. Kind Of… Okay Maybe Not But It Is My Half Term And Therefore Doing Nothing Is Advised.

So Here My Week So Far
Monday I Went To Southend With A Couple Of My Friends, Two Person I Didnt Know One Of Which I Got To Know, A Few People Who I Know From School And One Person I Dont Like All That Much But That A ‘Different More Complicated I Dont Want To Get In To Story’ Anyways I Was A Bit Worried At First Because I Had To Drive There In A Car With The Few People I Knew From School And It Wasnt Like As Weird As I Thought I Was Gunna Be. When We Got There 2 Out Of The 3 Cars Parked In The Same The Place But The Other One Parked Like Miles Away, And Becasue Of That We Were Split Up For Most Of The Day. The Day Was Laugh Hanging Out On The Stone Beach And Then Playing Mini Golf And Going On The Rides It Was Fun. On The Way Home I Was In The Car With The Guy I Dont Like Very Much Which Was Stange, I Mean Its Not Like I Hate Him Or Anything Its Just Some Of The Things He Does And Has Done Make Me Think He Not Nice And Plus I Get This Vibe From Him Like He Doesnt Like Me Either So Whatever.

Tuesday I Did Nothing But Listen To Music And Watch Tv. Seriously All Day I Wanted To Sleep.

Wednesday I Did The Same Thing Only In The Afternoon I Went To The Park And Took Some Photographs Of The Scenery And I Found This Weird Looking Bird/Duck Thing Im Not Sure What It Was But It Was Really Beautiful.

And Then Today I Did Nothing But Watch Dear John And Eat.
Im Not Looking Forward To Going Back To School Really School Makes Everything Else In Life Stressful But
Whatever.

LSS:
Ice – Lights
Best I Ever Had – Drake
Crush – Fugative

Chao For Now

‘Punk Rock 101′

Today I Was Woken Up By “Blah Blah Blah” Which Is My Ring Tone Aswell As My Alarm But In This Case My Phone Was Ringing Bearing In Mind It Was Like 8 In The Morning And Its Easter Break, I Was Think Who The Fuck Is This. Turns Out It Was My Friend Jade Asking If I Wanna Go Forthy Hall With Her An My Other Friend Amy. So Thats What I Did Today.

Today Is Also My Dads 41st Birthday. Kind Of Makes Him Sound Old But Its Not Really That Old.
Listening To Bowling For Soup For The First Time In Ages

Pissed Off That I Can Find My Phone Usb Computer Thing And Therefore Can Put An New Songs On My Phone Plus Im Tired Edition.

Timbaland Ft Drake Say Something, Cant Belive I Only Just Heard This Last Night, I Missed Out.

How Fit Is Drake!
Anyhow Chao.

MixTape

So I Didnt Blog Yesterday For Two Reason One I Blogged Twice The Day Before And Because Yesterday I Was Ill And Did Nothing, But Watch Cougar Town All Day.

I Had No Idea That Drake Was In Degrassi: The Next Generation I Need To Catch Up On That Seriously Because His Hot.


So Im Trying To Make A Mix Cd And I Cant Really Decide What Songs I Want On It Yet Because I Dont Want Any Of The Same Bands or Artist On The CD Twice.
Ill Figure It Out

Chao x

Happy Easter!

Im Not Really The Biggest Fan Of Easter, Maybe That Because Im Not A Big Fan Of Masses Amount Of Chocolate, Or Whatever But I Do Like The Other Things That Easter Represents Such As New Life.
But Still Happy Easter!

Chao

Doctor Who

OH WOW.
I Was A Little Unsure About Whether I Was Going To Like Matt Smith As The Doctor But I Was Presently Surprised.

This Episode Was Good, The Way It Started Was Funny With The Doctor Flying Through The Air In The Tardis Was Good Becaue You Were Unsure About Where And When He Was Going To End Up. When He Ended Up In Amys Garden I Thought Thats How They Would Meet, But When He Come Back When She Was Older And She Said That She The Little Girl Was Gone I Thought That Maybe The Alien Thing Had Got Her Or Something But Then When She Said About Him Being Gone For 12 Years I Realised That She Was The Little Girl.

I Love The Clothes That Her Wears And The Way He Is Its Quite Sexy And Quirky Aswell, But Im Not Sure Wear He Got That Bow Tie From.
Overall I Think It Was A Great Episode And Im Really Looking Forward To The Rest Of The Serises.
OH

Not What It Seems

Okay i adimite it im kind of obessed with ‘The Vampire Diaries’ i think the tv show is better then the books even though i havent finish reading the books yet, i mean in the book elean is annoying and bitchy. ITS NOT GOOD. I really liked this weeks episode.

I really want to see these films
Sherlock Homes
How To Train Your Dragon
Remember Me
Percy Jackson And The Olympians The Lightning Thief
Dear John
When In Rome
The Blind Side
Fame
before the months over.

Im excited for Doctor Who which i think is on at like 6 30 or something, i really want to like matt smith as the doctor and i hope i do because even though david tenannt was a great doctor things change.
anyways i will keep you informed about how i liked the episode.

chao x
LSS – All Time Low – Hello Brooklyn